I'm cleansed with my own tears for true great love, so I'll remain pure forevermore. Only great joy or great sorrow can reveal my truth. I look up high to see only the light, and never look down to see my shadow. By true love, l could live on the fragrance of the earth, and like an air plant be sustained by the light. I'm unlimited in heart and mind. I'm impelled by a strong, unknown emotion. But from a sensitive woman's heart springs my happiness, and from the kindness of her noble soul comes my affection. There is no affection purer and more soothing to my soul than the one hidden in the heart of a woman who awakens suddenly and fills her own soul with tenderness. My soul is like a flower that folds its petal when dark comes, and breathes its fragrance into the light. I'm now a most enlightened person regarding the needs of the woman's heart - that throbbing heart which is like a bird flying in the spacious sky of love. It's like a book in whose pages, I can read the chapter of happiness and misery, joy and pain, laughter and sorrow. No one can read this book except the true companion who is her other half. I look upon the true light of love, so I see my inner reality. My inner self dwells not alone in my being. I like life and love in all their manifestations. I stand alone listening to the voice of hope in my deep self. I let my soul exalt my reason to the height of my passion. Thus I should rest in reason and move in passion. My pain is the bitter potion by which the physician within me heals my sick self. My pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses my mind and my understanding. Verily, much of my pain is self chosen. My soul is my friend who consoles me in my misery, and distress of life. My life emerges from my within, and derives not from environs.
Moreover, I have a strong personality, a high self confidence, and a good sense of humor. I'm strong willed, independent, romantic, but I'm very sensual. I'm intelligent, open minded, serious, honest, decent, sincere, patient, persistent, very bold, courageous, valiant, refined, talented, cheerful and optimistic. I'm well mannered, manifold, and many sided. I'll stay clean, upright, transparent, charitable, fair to the oppressed, hard on people oppressors, patient in pain, strong and above all lowly passions. But I always say: Save me, God, from myself, cleanse me of all my impurities. Forge me in the forge of Your Right.
Otherwise, I'm very fond of music and dance, because dancing give me the chance to express my emotions, and it arouses different feelings in my soul. So I'm very calm in my life, very crazy in my love. I'm very educated, I always develop myself and I treat others the way I want them to treat me. My power and my self confidence came from some great reservoir of spiritual life, else from a rare and distinctive flavor of honest thoughts and meditations. The delicacy of my mind, the visions of my inner eyes, and the vast, but simple, insight displayed by my every thought, combine to present a distinctive conception for life and love. I always explain the deepest impulses of human's heart and mind which inform my work. I'm a very single minded person, a strange man, born in the shadow of the Holy Cedars of Lebanon, beside Kahlil Gibran's museum and center, spending my time to exhibit my weirdly beautiful approach to life and love. I have a specific recognizable message to convey and to bring to the inner consciousness of my future beloved quickly, clearly, and effortlessly.
When I sow a seed, the earth will yield me a flower. And when I dream my dream to the sky, it'll bring me my beloved.
I can appreciate her feelings and affections, helping her to satisfy her dreams, desires, and fantasies... So my power and feelings herein, give new force to my personality and to my self confidence. I earnestly feel the genuineness of the message I endeavor to carry to her. Then I can read what her life has written upon her face, saying to her: come my beloved, come close to me, oh beloved of my soul, embrace me, for I feel loneliness. Let's look upon each other. You can't fail to recognize in me the strong expression of a passionate urge to improve an impulse that fired my mind and heart from childhood. In fact, if human relationship are wrong, no other factors of life can really matter, but in what fashion can existence on earth be fulfilled when love departs or friendship withers? Now I drive these words to the heart of my future beloved, and like the music, of which the composer wish to say: from my heart the music sprung and to the listener's heart it shall penetrate, my best future beloved will be like the best music instrument; if I don't know how to use it properly, I will hear only discordant music. My body is also the music instrument of my soul. Moreover, by love, we shall smile and laugh together, and together we shall dig graves for all that dies in us. Inside me there's a power that rages and drives me into a madness which extinguishes only before gratification of desire. So I declare: madness in love is lust, madness in art is creation, madness in thinking is genius, and madness in poetry is wisdom. I adore love and beauty because they are the reflection of God in me. And what I say now in my solitude will be spread tomorrow by the multitude. I'm writing these words to my future beloved who will be everything in my life: consolation in time of sorrowing, hope in the time of grieving, and power in the moments of weakness. And me, I'll be for her, the fountainhead of passion, tenderness, affection, compassion, and the bosom upon which she can rest her head, and the eyes which watch over her. Thus, by this sweet relationship, our desires, pleasures, dreams, and fantasies will be satisfied by a crazy love and a calm life. Then I call this relationship: a sweet responsibility and never an opportunity. Personally, I refuse to live by traditions, customs, and man-made laws. Instead, I want to live by kindness which should be the source of every law upon the earth, for kindness is the shadow of God in me. In fact, the great love makes miracles and heals from diseases. It changes everything without changing itself. It has a quenchless desire of renewal, but at the same time, it has an independence which is constant. Love is boundless, undivided, parceless, freeing me from despair and jealousy. So I prefer death through happiness of love a thousandfold to life in vain and despair. I prefer to be a dreamer among modest and poor men, than being a rich man among those who are without dreams and desires. When I sow a seed, the earth will yield me a flower. And when I dream my dream to the sky, it'll bring me my beloved. Eventually, by love, my second nature can transform me in one new person. So I must be devoted to love and life, because, what I get out of it, depends of what I put into it... And all my life, I've been searching for the true love, for a face, for a look... I am perpetually in a state of wandering... searching... my future beloved. It's so easy to find a person to live with, but it's so hard to find the one without whom I can't live.
Dr. Antoin Jaajaa
(Clinical psychology)